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Twenty sixth part

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco’s Ryan Ross’ point of view

Her eyes were the most alluring pair I swear I've ever seen. Didn’t Althea know that I was her captive? “Ryan? Ryan?” Kelly’s voice rang in my ear & I turned away from Althea. “I’m going home already. My parents are looking for me,” she said. “Oh, I’ll take you home,” I somewhat unhappily proposed.

“It is okay, my brother’s going to pick me up,” Kelly replied, “he’s here now.” My eyes averted to the black Porsche she was looking at. “Bye guys!” she said. “Take care,” Althea said as she waved to Kelly. Kelly returned the gesture after getting in the car & they were gone in seconds. “I’m going back to the bus, I’m kind of tired,” Althea said.

“I’ll be with you,” Spencer said. Brendon, Jon & I just finished our cups then we followed the two back to the bus. I decided I needed the sleep after not getting any the night before at Kelly’s house. She & her family were kind enough to let me spend some days at their house. They were the family I wish I had.

Althea’s point of view

I thought it was just my imagination because what else could be a better reason for Ryan’s screaming my name. I looked at the rest of the guys but they were sleeping soundly. Should I wake him up? What should I do if he wakes up? Then he shouted again, “Althea.” “Wake up,” I whispered to Ryan as I shook him.

When I knew he was conscious, I quickly got a bottle of water from their fridge which I was thankful for at this time. It was handy. Ryan emptied the bottle fast. “What were you dreaming about?” I asked him as I took the bottle from him. “I remember everything now. It all makes sense suddenly. It was the missing piece I was looking for ever since,” he slurred then hugged me. “What? I didn’t understand a word,” I said which was true.

“I love you & I hope that you’d still forgive me for not remembering you at once.” “Whoa, what’s this, Ryan? How about Kelly? Kelly’s currently my best friend if you’ve forgotten and she’s also your girlfriend. You can’t love me,” I said intensely. I wouldn’t hurt Kelly for anything in the world. In the short time we have been together, we understood each other.

Twenty fifth part

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco’s Spencer Smith’s point of view

Ryan glared at me and fought back as I held his arms behind his back. The minute I could feel him calming down, I let go and he ran out. Ryan didn’t come back until Monday, two days after the incident.

He brought a girl named Kelly with him & he told us that she was already his girlfriend. Althea was the first one to greet Kelly & she told Kelly how lucky she was to have Ryan. They became friends then. Jon never pursued Althea after the Ryan episode & Kelly turned out to be nice.

Panic at the Disco’s Ryan Ross’ point of view

We all hung out that day at a coffee shop nearby. We would be moving again to another place & I would’ve to leave Kelly even though I knew I could easily make her come on tour with us. She was no Althea. “I can’t believe that no one would ask you out,” Kelly told Althea. We all waited for her reply.

“Honestly, neither could I,” Althea said, trying to be funny. “I could introduce you to some of my friends although they’re pretty much like me so don’t expect,” she suggested. I still haven’t told Kelly we won’t be staying.

I didn’t dare to. The boys glowered at me. “You don’t have to,” Althea dismissed. I was relieved. It was breezy that day & I couldn’t help but love what the wind does to her hair. I adored the red that appears in her face whenever it gets cold & the twinkle present in her eyes whenever she's smiling.

Twenty fourth part

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Spencer Smith’s point of view

“He got some nerve,” Brendon came, mumbling. I nodded & Jon didn’t know what to do. He was probably wondering why Brendon was siding with him when Ryan was almost his best friend.

“Look, Jon, I including Spencer here don’t care if you like Althea more than a friend but promise me not to hurt her like Ryan did,” Brendon said. Jon’s expression was near to what the fuck obviously. It was so evident probably that not even Jon himself could see that he was fancying Brendon’s sister.

I didn’t have any problem with that actually though I am Althea’s friend & I wasn’t pretty sure if she liked him back because Jon was good in many ways possible. Brendon & I without knowing Ryan was there, watched.

We saw Althea pull Jon from where he sat & as they danced in the rain. Her eyes were glistening as they moved a step backward then forward again & again. I wish she fell for Jon instead then but I knew it was Ryan who was still in her mind. I watched Jon as he walked to his bunk after changing.

It was then that I notice Ryan who was gnashing his teeth at the sight of Jon. At the far end of the bus, Althea was asleep after having dinner earlier than the rest of us. “I wish I didn’t introduce you to the group!"

Ryan who was now livid continued, "you’re stealing my friends & now, you’re stealing her.” Brendon who was watching his sister sleep diverted to Ryan who shouted earlier. When Ryan was about to punch Jon & because we knew Jon wouldn’t fight back, I decided to end his outburst.

Twenty third part

Monday, April 27, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Jon Walker’s point of view

We all know it was evident that Althea was avoiding Ryan but Ryan was always persistent to hang out with her. When the two of us were left once, Althea asked me how Ryan was after the accident. Honestly, I didn’t know how to answer the question especially since I didn’t know what she wanted to know.

“He was okay. He never dated somebody else,” I asked looking down, avoiding her eyes. I wondered if that was what she wanted to hear. Rain started pouring. She pulled my hand and we went outside.

She putted her phone on loud speaker & a slow song played. He placed one of my hands on her waist & the other on her shoulder. “Isn’t this fun?” she asked as she grinned sheepishly but the rain couldn’t hide the tears from her eyes. I smiled at her. I couldn’t help but feel guilty & confused. I shouldn’t fall for Althea.

She wasn’t for me. Even my friends wouldn’t like this. I was glad when Brendon called for us to come in. We must have looked crazy. I pondered as I waited for Althea to finish changing in the bus’ comfort room.

“I thought it was clear that I liked her,” Ryan stated a little grumpily. I was taken aback somehow. He never said that to us as far as I can remember. Is he already remembering what happened before then? Spencer instead of Brendon came to my rescue. I was never really the talker.

“Can you please explain that further because I’m pretty sure my brain’s still working & it’s telling me you didn’t say anything like that anytime previously,” he shot back. "But.." Ryan stammered. He stamped off at a loss.

Twenty second part

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Brendon Urie’s point of view

We were all hoping that this would help both Althea and Ryan. Ryan had been talking to us about this girl he keeps on remembering but he never remembers her name when sometimes we think he’s so close to it already. Mom had called me and told me that Althea had just rejected Lee’s proposal.

I can feel her distress when I called her. Dad said he was proud of her for she never cried. Can’t he see that it wasn't something to be particularly happy about? Seeing Althea again, she told all of us how great we were.

Ryan also happened to love her fave. From all that he has composed, it was his current beloved as he keeps on telling us when we would ask him what he actually saw in that song to make him like it that much. Ryan then liked Althea and to Ryan, they officially became friends.

All of us except Ryan could see the heartbreak on her beautiful face. Once when only we were left in the bus because Althea would buy something, he would tell us that sometimes he feels like he knows her.

We have all agreed that it wasn’t from us that he would learn the painful verity of their situation. At times we catch Althea avoiding Ryan. When we asked her about this, she said it would be better for both of them. She says that maybe it was fate that Ryan forgets her. She ran outside after that.

Twenty first part

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Althea’s point of view

We were very happy of course that Ryan didn’t die but I was sorrowful when I learned that he had amnesia. I wanted so much to come with the three of them when they decided to fly to where Ryan was but I was having my first ever art gallery the next day. I was sad Ryan wasn’t there to be happy with me.

I’ve sold a number of paintings when Brendon called me and said that Ryan remembered them. When I asked him if he remembered me, he said in a voice so soft that I almost didn’t hear that he didn’t. All of them tried but to no success; I went home after that feeling sick. I wanted to cry.

I told myself that Ryan wasn’t crying over anymore. I’ve cried for him twice before but that was it. Enough is enough. Since then, I tried my hardest to move on. I even got myself a few suitors and finally a boyfriend. His name was Lee but his mom’s the only one who’s Chinese.

Lee was his parents’ only child. I met him on another art gallery but he was never anything like my Ryan. I thought I would learn to love Lee through the years for he was always there for me but I proved myself wrong when he asked finally if I would marry him. I gave him a heartbreaking no.

When Brendon invited me to go on tour with them for they were promoting their new album, I agreed to go with them but I had already long forgotten about my hope of Ryan remembering me. Spencer and Jon were very happy about it. They treated me like family so I do the same too.

Twentieth part

Friday, April 24, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Ryan Ross’ point of view

My mom died just as I entered the house, my aunt said. It was as if she just wanted me to be there when she died. My uncle told me that my mom had cancer and she didn’t have enough money to get treated. She didn’t even bother to tell anyone at all because she believed that it was her fault she didn’t take care of herself.

When I visited her grave late in the evening, it rained. The road was slippery & the next thing I knew were white walls surrounding me. My aunt & uncle were beside me. I was bloody and tubes were being connected to me.

Then all went blank. I then remembered flying from my car, which crashed to a tree. I woke up a month afterward. I don’t remember anything. I removed the tubes from my body and went to the nearest nurses’ station. “Who am I?” I asked the nurse who was writing something. She was surprised when she saw me.

She immediately called for a doctor & he said that I'm a certain Ryan Ross. Days later while I was trying to remember things I knew I wanted to remember when three boys knocked on my aunt’s & uncle’s house.

I greeted them myself & asked who they were. I must have known them before because they looked shocked. “We’re sorry about what happened, Ryan,” one of them said. “It’s okay, please come in,” I said when suddenly, memories of them flooded my mind. I saw myself with a guitar in front of many people.

“Brendon, Jon, Spencer! How are you guys?” I asked smiling. It had been long. Spencer grinned at me but Brendon asked if I remembered other things. “Not much seriously,” I said. His face fell.

Nineteenth part

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Spencer Smith’s point of view

“I wonder how Althea looks like now,” I said looking out the window of the plane we’re in. “Must be pretty, if you guys are all so interested in here,” Jon tried. Brendon’s phone rang. “Hey,” Brendon answered. “Is Ryan with you?” I heard her say. Brendon was beside me after all.

“She’s looking for Ryan,” I told Jon who looked at me curiously. “He’s going to be a little late, you see,” we heard Brendon say. “What’s he up to?” she inquired. “He’s not up to anything. Something else came up,” Brendon said.

Some seconds of no answer from Althea. “What is it?” “Something happened to his mom,” Brendon said & he looked relieved after the call. “What did she say?” “She says it is fine but I’m not sure, she’s waited for him for so long,” he said, looking a little down. We didn’t talk much after that.

I just listened to my iPod while Jon slept. Brendon playfully punched Jon’s arm to tell him we’re about to land already. Bet you couldn’t imagine how glad Jon & I was when he’s himself again.

Althea was waving to us and Brendon ran right to her. No wonder Ryan’s ex thought they weren’t siblings at all. “Spencer!” she said and hugged me. “You must be Jon, right?” she said looking at Jon. “Would you believe me if I said I was Ryan?” he asked. I just had to snicker.

Eighteenth part

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Jon Walker’s point of view

I was pretty sure I wasn’t the only one who had seen Brendon throw his hands up in the air. I do wonder what Ryan did this time. “What is it now?” Spencer asked Ryan after Brendon paced left & right. “Something happened to my mom, you see,” he stated. “Well, what does Brendon have to do with that?”

“I can’t attend Althea’s graduation,” he muttered. I have never seen Althea in person but I have heard a lot about her. Brendon said that she was his younger sister & that she was in San Francisco.

Ryan & Althea also had some kind of history as I’ve put together. “That sounds bad,” I said. “It does. He promised Althea before that he would come back for her after a year & a half,” Spencer narrated. “Meaning you're homecoming has already been long delayed,” I said & turned to Ryan, “so what do you plan?”

“I’m still going to fly to wherever my mom is after we finish.” We all decided then to try to finish quickly hoping that he’ll still be able to go to the graduation. Brendon was more cheerful later on even to Ryan later that day.

Our efforts were evident and Ryan flew to him mom on February. Ryan was getting gloomier and gloomier. “My aunt said she’s getting worse everyday,” he said. Ryan’s dad died the year before and we didn’t think that Ryan could cope with another loss at once.

Seventeenth part

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Panic at the Disco’s Brendon Urie’s point of view

There was nothing much worth missing from high school, Spencer & Ryan agreed with me. Spencer & I were kind of guilty about Ryan not graduating. We were also responsible for his and my sister’s postponed love story. We’re already recording our first album when Jon Walker asked for a break.

I'm now the main vocalist of the group & Ryan was guitarist but he still backed me up at times. We met Jon through Ryan. They were old friends like their previous guitarist, he had to transfer to a different place too because of their family.

Jon’s just as awesome as Ryan, Spencer & Fall Out Boy who helped us out a lot. I decided to check up on Althea who was already on her last year in an art academy. "How are you guys doing?” she asked. “We’re all good. How’s you?” “Still counting on your promise that you guys will be here for my graduation.”

“I wouldn’t miss that for anything else in the world but I’ve got to go now,” I said when I heard Jon screaming Urie. “Take care,” she hung up. “Was that Althea?” Spencer asked. “Yeah,” I said looking at the others who were preparing.

“Looks like Ryan has something to tell you,” Jon whispered. “Wonder what about,” I thought. “I can’t go to her graduation,” he said catching his breath. “What!” I let out. “My aunt called and told me that something happened to my mom. I’ll just finish recording with you guys and I’ll fly,” he explained. I frowned at him & imagined what Althea would say.

Sixteenth part

Monday, April 20, 2009

Althea’s point of view

I merely laughed. “Do you think everything’s happening too fast?” he asked me suddenly. “Honestly?” I asked. “Of course,” he told me. “Yes,” I answered and pursed my lips. “I was thinking but I don’t want you to get me wrong,” he trailed off. “Well?” I looked up at her. “Spencer said that he & Brendon wanted to get the band further on,” his voice was fading. “And?” I encouraged him on.

“I want to be with them when they do that,” his voice was cracking. “They’re going to do after high school?” I suggested. He nodded. “So what are you worrying about?” I asked as cool as I can. I can pretty much see where this conversation’s headed to. The stars were already out & I stared at them instead.

Ryan didn’t answer my question. “Don’t worry, I will try to wait for you if that’s what you’re asking for,” I said. I kissed him on the cheek. “I’m very fortunate I was blessed with you,” he said beaming at the sky, “I promise to be yours after a year and a half.” “I will expect that. I might even wait longer if I have to, you know,” I assured. His lips touched my forehead, “do you plan to take up college?” I nodded. “Which course?”

“Fine arts,” I said, excited about the idea. “Sounds cool,” he said, “Want to go home already?” “It is getting dark,” I said. He led the way, holding one of my hands. I thought it was pretty sweet. When we got to my house, he refused when I asked him if he wanted to come in. I bid him goodnight & let him kiss me on the lips.

I left him there and ran to my room. The roses he gave me earlier were in a vase on my desk. Brendon’s & Spencer’s graduation was nearing. I’d miss them terribly perhaps. I could see them famous, on tours with fan girls all over them & I'd be there for my brother, for Ryan & for Spencer of course who has been very nice to me ever since. In my dream, it rained hard as Ryan walked away. I was inhaling sharply when I woke up.

Fifteenth part

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco's Spencer Smith’s point of view

She was obviously thanking her. She brought the flowers in & later, emerged. It was twilight and the time was just right I thought. They will be dining at this Italian restaurant and I just hope all of the stars will be out there tonight at the field near a river where Ryan & I used to play with other childhood friends. I was becoming glad that neither Althea nor Ryan was too dressy.

Panic at the Disco's Ryan Ross’ point of view

I was delighted to hear Althea say that she loves Italian food; we even had wine when we were there. When we got into the car and she noticed that we still weren’t on our way home, she asked me if I had any other plans. I said yes and she was asking what were they but I said that it was going to be a surprise. I stopped at a roadside & opened the door for her.

After covering her eyes with my hands, I led her to one of the few places I loved. I can very much assume that she was already having an idea when we were nearing for the sound of water flowing was evident. I kept my hands then to myself & let her look around. There was a pretty big clearing beside this body of water.

“This is beautiful,” she said to me. “Not as beautiful as you though,” I grinned. “Anyone else you brought here before?” she asked as she sat down on the earth and invited me to do so too. I asked myself the same question, “not a girl,” I told her. “What do you mean?” she asked. “I used to hang out here when I was younger,” I said trying to reminisce those days. What was there to reminisce when there wasn’t anything splendid enough to remember?

The only real friend I had then was Spencer; the rest was kind of scared I guess because of my dad. “What are you thinking about?” she queried. I turned to her and smiled, “nothing.” “That’s what people say when they actually do,” she said seemingly to herself but I still replied, “So you do that too?”

Fourteenth part

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

“You didn’t have to come to my rescue you know. I was actually appreciating that she’s doing the first move. I was afraid that I’d have to go look for her but I thank you anyways,” she said. I beamed at her, proud of myself for protecting the only sister God thought of giving me. “So you’re still not canceling your plans tomorrow?” I said casually. She shook her head. “I hope you have fun,” I said halfheartedly.

If I was in her shoes, I probably wouldn’t. Everyone in the house can’t help but be aware of Althea’s restlessness and when my mom learned that Althea was dating again after her previous forlorn relationship, she was just as in high spirits. She even called up one of our female cousins so they can all assist her with stuff.

Panic at the Disco's Spencer Smith’s point of view

I was actually eager for Ryan’s date. I could see his genuineness when he told me that he wanted Althea to know that he’s really sorry. I was so eager that I even helped him carry out his plan. We two were in his room immediately when his mom left for work. “So what do you think should I wear?” he asked. “Seriously Ryan,” I continued, “sometimes I was wondering if you were straight. Can you even hear yourself?”

“Well, I’m nervous. I’ve never done anything of this kind before,” he said, “and you’re of no help.” “Maybe we should get Brendon,” I suggested. “Finally, a decent suggestion - I thought I’d never hear one.” When I looked outside, I saw Brendon sitting at their front steps. I waved at him & he got the idea.

I waited for him at Ryan’s door & told him to be quiet. When he asked why, I pointed at the room of Ryan’s father. And Brendon did quite some magic. I’m pretty sure Althea would love him. He crossed the street to the Uries’ house. Brendon & I hid behind a tree after wishing him luck. Althea was at the door when he knocked and he gave her a bouquet of red and white roses we purchased before Brendon came over from a florist I knew.

Thirteenth part

Friday, April 17, 2009

Still Althea’s point of view

He whispered an I love you. Back then in detention I knew I loved him but with everything happening so fast in just a little number of days, I’m the old me again – unsure of mostly anything but nevertheless, I let him hear what he could’ve possibly wanted to hear from me. Then he got closer to me and kissed me. I didn’t kiss back, I didn’t dare. I’ve never been kissed before and I wasn’t even planning to have my first one today.

I was thinking of an excuse from what I did. He must’ve been disappointed. I stood up and said that my parents would be probably coming home soon, after imagining the sun setting outside. Its once very bright rays that lit up the room were becoming a darker orange. He nodded and stood up as well.

The unhappy look I was expecting to see on his face wasn’t there. He persisted that I go with him on his way home. He said that he missed me. I wanted to believe him so much but I figure that it wasn’t going to be as easy as chemistry at all. When we were at his house’ door, he turned around and bid me goodbye. He promised that he’ll pick me up at five in the afternoon the next day.

Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

I knew in my small heart that my sister loves Ryan so as respect; I promised to myself that I wouldn’t do anything to hurt her. I will not even try to beat Ryan up even though I know I have a good chance of winning against him because I know Spencer will help me see to it that that mission is accomplished but I still followed Althea with my eyes when she came with Ryan to his house though his house was only in front of ours.

Thank God I was watching because that Ashlee was about to hurt my sister when Ryan left her to go inside his house. She just threw us a dirty look before fleeing from the scene. “I swear one day, that bitch will get what she’s asking for,” I muttered as I opened the door to our house for Althea.

Twelfth part

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco's Ryan Ross’ point of view

It wasn’t hard to spot Althea; she was at one corner of their living room. She was sobbing but she stopped. “Who’s there?” she asked. If I said I was present, what would she do? I didn’t say anything in the end but I couldn’t resist the opportunity to wipe tears that had just fallen from her eyes. “I’m sorry,” I said. “That’s what you said before.” “But I swear this will be the first and last time you’ll cry because of me.”

I sat beside her on the floor. I returned some strands of her hair to their rightful place behind her ear. She was quiet, like when we were in detention when I asked her if she had any boyfriends in the past. She never did answer that question. I didn’t want to hear her answer anyway then. Was she keeping a secret again from me?

It was hard not to detect that she had stopped crying. “Ashlee’s going to be angry at me,” she stated. “I don’t want her to come over here and put up a fight with me,” she continued. “I wouldn’t let anything happen,” I replied. “That’s good enough,” she said as she faced me. I was trying to be my sincerest. Facing her, I can see my regret for once daring to choose Ashlee over her when Althea was all that I could’ve asked for.

I couldn’t reason with myself why I chose Ashlee. I was disgusted with every inch of myself when I thought of my lips brushing against Althea’s after what I’ve did with Ashlee. "Do you think I deserve a second chance?" I asked. "I’m giving you that and more. I don’t even know why I’m doing this."

Althea’s point of view

If only Ryan knew, if only he knew that this wasn’t the first time I cried because of him. There wasn’t even an official us yet but I’ve already cried because of him two times. He was the only boy and I could imagine the only boy who could do this to me. Hell, not even my brother can do this to me. I know that the last words I managed to get out of me are not the best words put together.

They don’t sound as awesome as I love you put together but they don’t hit as nasty as I hate you probably does. Still facing Ryan, I saw somebody else in the background – Brendon but he left. Does Ryan know he was here? Ryan held my hand and traced whatever he could then looked back at me.

Eleventh part

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

When Spencer announced that he would be in the kitchen preparing food, Althea offered at once to help. Oh great, so now they’re living me with these two? I couldn’t imagine how I’d cope with the two of them all over each other. After some minutes, I was already thinking that I’m going to throw up.

I headed for Spencer & Althea who were for me, taking too long. “Who the heck is she?” I asked, not minding if she overhears or something. I remembered someone who told me that people who eavesdrop hear things they don’t like.

Panic at the Disco's Spencer Smith’s point of view

“She’s Ashlee.” “What a whore that bitch is,” he mumbled after attacking a glass of juice. “I know,” I said but was suddenly aware of the fact that Althea wasn’t in the kitchen anymore. “Where’d your sister go?” I asked Brendon. He looked around, “just drop by if you need to, okay?” he said on his way out already.

I can’t believe Ryan’s back with her. Ryan said he absolutely hated Ashlee after they broke up but I also heard him say that Ashlee gets whatever she wants. I wonder what she did to Ryan to get him back.

Panic at the Disco's Ryan Ross’ point of view

This thing with Ashlee’s getting a little harder to control. I got to escape her and before I knew it, I was after Althea already. She entered her house and I stopped dead before her door. Should I just go in and apologize for everything that’s happened? I gently turned their doorknob. Their house was neat but it was dark.

Tenth part

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

I cleared my throat and told her that I was trying out as a guitarist. What a huge mistake. “For whose band?” she asked while she picked at her bowl of cereal. I gulped. “Well?” she said. “For Spencer’s band,” I said. “Oh.” I apologized. “What for?” she asked. Why can’t I just keep my enormous mouth shut?

“Nothing,” I replied. She left me to wash our bowls, glasses and spoons. I was on my way to Spencer’s hours later when Althea told me to wait for her since she’s coming too. “I’m going to support you!” she said.

“Like I need any,” I replied airily. Spencer was outside his house when we came. He whispered to me that Ryan brought somebody else. Althea was checking out his house when he did that. He led us to their basement which happened to be soundproof. It’s confirmed, Ryan’s there with the girl she was with yesterday.

I stole a glance at Althea & she looked perfectly fine. She must be breaking inside. My audition went well in my point of view. I waited for the results though. Spencer & Ryan told me I was great.

Althea told me the same thing when I came over to sit beside her. Spencer told all of us to come upstairs so we can have some food. The girl Ryan brought approached my sister. Althea shook a little. “You’re Brendon’s girlfriend I suppose?” I was about to butt in into their about to be conversation when Spencer did me a favor.

I was about to butt in into their about to be conversation when Spencer did me a favor. He stated that Althea was actually my sister. That girl said an oh and went back to Ryan. I’ve seen better public displays of affection.

Ninth part

Monday, April 13, 2009

Still Althea’s point of view

My mind was screaming something else though, "but he asked you out! That must mean you're something to him." Damn it, I was missing him more than I have to I guess. The day seemed to drag on like the days when I still didn’t know that a Ryan existed in the class I was in. Spencer, Brendon & I went home silently.

I wanted to ask Spencer so badly where Ryan’s house was so I could drop by but I knew I didn’t need to when I saw Ryan holding hands with this girl I didn’t really know. Then she kissed him & he kissed back.

I wanted to ask out loud so much if I should be hurt by what I was seeing but forced my mouth to shut up. I tried my best to not make any sound as my feet carried me off to my house as hot tears came down without my permission at all. I was still quiet when I got to my house & I wondered if my parents would notice.

I haven't even greeted them like I usually would upon arrival but I didn't want to risk answering any questions. My parents don't have any business with what I got myself into. Brendon didn't even knock the whole time.

No, I didn't waste time crying. I just sat up on the only window sill in my room, looking out. I was pretty much half hoping that Ryan would go home alone. What if she went home with him?But Ryan was alone when he went home to my relief. I had to quickly conceal myself as he turned around to look at my house.

Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

I was pretty much as sure as hell of what we all saw yesterday but when I saw Althea acting like her usual self this morning, I decided that I wouldn’t be the first one to bring up the topic. I love my sister; she makes my life easier – most of the time. Since our parents had to go to work early as usual, we two were left alone.

And because I don’t want to make anything harder for the next most important lady in my life, I decided that I would try to be my self too. It wasn’t very hard though for me because as I always tell her, it’s very easy to be me. No stress but I knew that one day, I’d slip and today was pretty much the day I guess.

Eighth part

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Panic at the Disco's Ryan Ross’ point of view

I couldn’t sleep the whole night but I didn’t get why I ended up with a fever the next day and my body ached so my mom being the parent she is insisted that I don’t go to school. Personally, I would’ve loved that but I wanted to see Althea. I was now on my way to school after my mom went to attend work.

I then saw someone I know I knew at the playground’s only swing. I hurriedly
walked towards school, wanting to avoid the risk of her seeing me. “Ryan.” She
spoke my name but to me it sounded like a yell.

She ran after me & I remembered me running after Althea yesterday. I heard the footsteps behind me stop. “Why are you doing this to me?” The words hit me the way I was expecting them to. “Why did you do that to me?” I asked. “I didn’t mean to,” she replied. “I’m sure you didn’t,” I said.

“Okay, I’m sorry. We broke up already. I need you back.” “That’s just how it is then
after all?” I inquired. I inhaled the breath she had just exhaled and smelled alcohol. “What else do you want me to tell you?”

She made her way to me and our lips were about to crash. My phone rang & I saw Spencer’s name flashing. I didn’t have to imagine the hurt that spread on her face when I pushed her away to answer my friend. I managed to stutter a nothing to his question before she threw my phone to the ground.

Althea’s point of view

I just watched Spencer in what seemed like futile efforts from him to contact Ryan. I didn’t know how to react. I mean, I’m not even his anything. I’m not even sure if we’re friends already after all, who would've wanted to be friends with someone who acted strangely towards you the day before.

Seventh part

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Panic at the Disco's Spencer Smith’s point of view

I was just about to call Ryan when my phone started ringing. You don’t really have to guess who it is. “What is it?” I asked. I can very much imagine the smile on Ryan’s face. “I asked her out!” “About time,” I replied. “That’s it?” he screamed.

“Well, what else did you want me to say?” I asked. “Something like good luck or some other thing that could help my nerves calm down for at least a second?” “Good luck then, I wanted to tell you something else though." I paused.

"You remember Althea’s brother I suppose?” “Of course!” he exclaimed at the other end. “He wants to try out as guitarist for the band.” “That sounds just as awesome as my date!” “I know so you better be here Saturday or else,” I tried to sound nasty.

“Okay, I get your point. See you tomorrow at school.” He hung up. How typical of that guy. Thank God, it’s Friday tomorrow. I think he’d be great. And finally, there’s actually someone to make my friend happy.

He deserves to be happy after everything that's happening to him. I can’t help but grimace at the thought of once pitying him. His dad’s usually drunk & his mom’s usually out making money for their family so they’re never really there for him.

Then there’s this girl who he first loved but broke his heart in a million pieces as he told me from whom he never heard from since the day she left him for somebody else. She didn’t know what she was losing probably at that time.

Sixth part

Friday, April 10, 2009

Still Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

So I went home with Spencer and I learned from him on the way home that we are all neighbors. Ryan’s house is right in front of our house while Spencer’s is on our right. Then Spencer told me something else I was more interested in.

He said that he and Ryan planned to make a band after high school but it was now nearly impossible because a friend of theirs who was supposed to be the guitarist was transferring to a different place. I quickly asked him if I could try out.

He told me to me drop by his house on Saturday. I was so happy when we separated ways that I skipped to my house. Althea got home a few minutes later singing to herself. It’s so unlike her. Can’t she have realized that yet seriously?

“Anything fun that happened in detention?” I asked trying my best to be nonchalant though I know I’ll never be successful. I just slip too much. She cocked her eyebrow at me and asked me what I wanted to know.

I replied, “I’d be interested in anything a younger sister might want to tell her older brother.” “Well, we just talked.” “Really?” I asked. She sat beside me on the sofa and bit her lip. “Yes,” she paused, “he asked me out.”

Fifth part

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Panic at the Disco's Ryan Ross’ point of view

I inhaled deeply again if that was possible. I added, "I feel that it is my need to tell you that I didn’t mean to make them happen.” I stiffened in my place as she pondered for a while. She replied, “Please explain the latter part.”

“I thought I didn’t deserve your presence.” She was thinking again. It was obvious with her eyes looking at the floor or at the walls instead of looking straight at me just like anyone would probably do. She was smart and I like that.

Then her lips moved, I swear I saw them in motion but they quickly stopped and instead of answering me, she turned around & walked again. I walked beside her & cheerfully inquired if I was forgiven already.

She said she would only forgive me if we don’t end up in detention for being late. I told her I can’t promise that but the idea of spending detention with her even if she would probably be furious about it seemed exciting. I think I’m in love.

Panic at the Disco's Brendon Urie's point of view

I didn’t get to go home with Althea today because she got in detention with Ryan. I can’t say I’m surprised. Although I know that Althea’s a smart girl, smarter than I am I have to admit, sometimes she tends to end up in this kind of situations..

Fourth part

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Ryan Ross' point of view

"Hey Thea, what are your next classes?" Spencer asked. Brendon then grabbed Althea's timetable. He announced the answer to Spencer's question. "Oh, she has chemistry next!" My face immediately lit up upon hearing this but when I caught her confusingly looking at me, I quickly returned to the indifferent look I had on earlier.

She looked away kind of hurt I guess. She never did anything to me so why was I doing this to her. It might be torturing her inside. I was torturing her mentally. She snapped at Brendon and took her timetable, walking as fast as she could away from us looking slightly guilty.

Spencer and Brendon didn't actually deserve this treatment from her but her insides were probably boiling with what seemed like anger. Brendon knew her better so he just dragged Spencer along to their next class. I was pretty sure Brendon meant to leave me almost alone but she didn’t walk any slower.

I don’t deserve her in any way and she doesn’t deserve me. I started running after her and I know she was sure she didn’t imagine hearing someone running. She was already late for chemistry she was sure so she kept on walking faster than she did previously but then I caught her by her right arm.

She quickly turned around ready to vent out what she was currently feeling towards me. I was guessing what she might be thinking the whole time. Maybe I better be ready for what I was asking for when I held her. I muttered an unmistakable apology for my actions earlier. She laughed sarcastically if that was possible.

Third part

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Note: this part is mainly narrated using Thea's point of view. The next part will be entirely Ryan. This story is also set back to a time when there was no Panic yet so they're all still in high school. I know Jon met Ry & Spencer first rather than Brendon but nevertheless.

I followed Brendon to the counter. His two new friends went ahead to find a table. "So, is that your way of saying sorry for being late a while ago?" Brendon asked. I replied absentmindedly, "huh?" "That skinny guy, you really know him, from your class?"

"Yeah," I said quietly on our way to the table they chose. I knew that silence was about to roll in when Brendon and I sat down to eat our lunch but the not-so-skinny guy cleared his throat and spoke up.

"I'm so sorry for being rude and not introducing ourselves, I am Spencer smith," he said then looking at his side, "and this is Ryan Ross." Spencer chuckled and putted his hand out. I shook it and smiled at him, "it is real pleasure to meet you - both of you."

Ryan just sat there, putting all of his attention to his tuna sandwich. Ryan Ross - such a pretty name. And it sounds interesting too. Spencer kept on asking us questions during the whole lunch break.

I just nodded every time Brendon would nudge me because I wasn't listening. I was not spacing out too or maybe I was - whatever. I guess I'm just too busy staring at him. Why won't he talk? The school bell rang signaling that we had to go back to classes.

Second part

Monday, April 6, 2009

Ryan's point of view:

Oh shit, is she looking at me? This is so freaky! I tried to maintain eye contact with her but the girl on her left suddenly asked her something. It was kinda fortunate I guess and I was thankful. I heaved a deep sigh of relief as the bell rang.

I quickly hurried out of the classroom to look for my friend, Spencer. After pushing my way along some crowds, I finally saw him. I was thinking of telling him that I saw this particular girl, nonetheless, I just asked him something else. "Hey Spence! Anything new?"

He dropped some stuff at his locker. "Nothing much, Ry. I just met this funny guy in my class. His name's Brendon.." he trailed off. "Oh, don't listen to him, it's Urie!" a guy yelled ecstatically from behind him.

I laughed after seeing him because he has this peculiar grin pasted on his face and knew that this happy guy was that Brendon. "Whatever urie, if that's how you want it, I thought your sis would be hanging out with us?" Spencer said. "She still would, believe me," Brendon said with a grin.

Your or Thea's point of view:

I finally saw my brother with two new friends. There were only a few people left in the hallway. I felt embarrassed because I made them wait but then suddenly another thought came to me as I was going near them already. "You're that guy from my class, right?!" I was probably screaming.

He was the skinny guy with the shy face, specific on who I was talking to. He totally knew that I was talking to him but he didn't say anything in reply. The three of them just walked towards the cafeteria with me tagging along. "Like, what's up with that?" I thought to myself.

First part: From that moment you'll be out of place.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Your name will be Althea Urie. That's how I imagine you to ~~actually~~ look like except for the part that your hair is dyed black with pink tips and ~~green~~ streaks, you're brendon's sis, ~~duh~~! Other info will be mentioned as the story unfolds.

Off to the story below with Ryan's point of view:

She tapped her ~~shiny~~ black shoes on the concrete floor absent-mindedly as she kept on glancing at the clock after a minute or so it was so unbelievable that not even one of the stupid people in this room makes her stop the racket she's causing. Maybe they're just too busy with their own stuff that they don't even care.

Oh, just look at the teacher. She's so lucky that she's getting payed with the money we're paying for the tuition fee though she never really gives a damn if any one is ever listening or even looking at all the stuff she's writing on that ~~blackboard~~.

Your point of view:

Can't time pass by faster? My hands are already sweaty and i don't wanna be here any more longer. This place is so boring and I've got nothing to do. To my left, brittany is painting her nails or something with this bright glittery ~~fuchsia~~ nail polish and to my right, Adrian is listening to his mp3 and almost drifting away to dreamland.

Isn't it plainly amazing that they're just fine there doing their own thing while I feel like I can burst any moment from now? Hm - maybe there's someone just like me in here. I quickly scanned the room and focused my eyes on someone I think I haven't noticed before.